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Today I didn't leave my apartment. I wasn't hungover, the weather was ok, it wasn't amazing but I could have went for a nice walk or made plan to meet someone for coffee, I could have just gone and got some shopping, especially since I have next to no food in the house! There was a bank holiday in Denmark on Friday so I had yesterday off which was good because after Thursday's night drinking I needed to sleep, that and I had missed my stop on the train five times on my way home. FIVE TIMES! Ridiculous.
I still went out on Friday to celebrate Valborg. But today I stayed in. I did noting productive. I talked to one person face to face who came over to my apartment. Thankfully she did cause otherwise I think I would be close to being insane.

I have missed everyone today. I probably could have called some friends here in Sweden to see what was going on but I wanted to hang out with everyone in Ireland. This has been the first time that I have really really wanted this. Like I mean I have always been thinking of everyone at home but today I needed to see everyone. I haven't been home since January. My family were over last month for easter which was great and Joe Panama was here just last weekend which was the best, what a dude. Maybe since he was here, I see that I miss home. I miss it more than I think I do.

I keep getting asked by people here, why am i here, how long do I plan on staying, what am i doing here. After 7 months I have my story down. It sucks. Swedish people are a lot more surprised that I am here than Irish people are that a Swedish person is in Ireland. Maybe I just haven't experienced it at home but out of all the Swedish people I met in Ireland I think I asked two of them "why are you here?" and I don't think I asked it as blunt as that. More like, "Why did you pick Ireland?"

I have had to sort my answers out for these questions. In jest I ask them why do they think I am here and 9/10 the say a Swedish girl/guy. 9/10 this is the reason anyone who isn't Swedish is in Sweden. 8/10 they are not with the said Swedish girl/guy but have decided to stay. I am that statistic.

I have no idea how long I am going to stay here. I really enjoy living here. I want to learn Swedish so that if/when I leave I have a second language that I can use. (You can only use Irish for a party trick unless you actually speak it on a regular basis, I have quoted the Carlsberg ad so many times!) Also not being able to speak Irish as a full language pisses me off. I wish I could speak it on a regular basis.

It helps that I am working. It helps that my job is in Denmark. By the time I can speak Swedish I should have a very good understanding of Danish. Completely different language but very similar just with different pronunciation of similar words. For the first three months when I wasn't working that question of what I was doing here was very hard to answer. Just hanging out having the laugh wasn't cutting it.

I miss having a band. This is slowly killing me. I have my drum kit set up in my apartment but my housemate is having more use of it than I am at the moment. I nearly feel that I have lost my creativity at playing. It's a Pearl Rhythm Traveller and when you hit the cymbals it sounds like you are hitting a radiator. That make me not want to play them. I want to be playing in Facing. I'm slowly getting worried that I can't play as well as I should be able to play. I need to be writing music again. Soon.

I could also get the finger out and try to write stuff on the computer. Or actually study how to speak Swedish. OR actually read the computer programming books that I have and prepare for the course that I dropped and hope to get back into. I have plenty that I should be doing but instead I am watching tv series, going drinking, sleeping and working. I wish I could say I was playing computer games but I'm only barely doing that, which shows cause as soon as I play Gears I die. I want to get my sleeve done. I want to learn how to play the trombone since I have one. I want to hang out with people that mean something to me.

The best thing about today is definitely Minus the Bear and their new album OMNI. And Mark Coleman's link on my Facebook page. And a text from someone. AND my kompis coming over to play some computer games, watch tv shows and have the chats.

Today has not been a great day. I should probably listen to How I met your mother and not post this because nothing good happens after 2am. But whatever, I'm home from May 19th till the 26th. I will be available for hang outs, drinking, chilling, bar mitzvahs, birthday parties and general messing and creeping. Call me.